We can only learn to know ourselves and do what we can – namely, surrender our will and fulfill God’s will in us. – Saint Teresa of Avila
So does that mean you must know yourself before you can surrender? I suppose if a robber tried to take what I had, but I didn’t know what I had, he would have a difficult time taking it. Until I know who I am and the purpose for which I was made, I cannot give all of myself fully to Christ. In the reality of God’s grand design for my life, the beautiful tapestry that He so carefully weaves, I find mystery and complexity, a cloud of unknowns, floating around me. I am stumbling around in the dark, with no flashlight. Shadowy figures are thrown on the walls, and my uncertainty only grows. What is the truth? What truths about myself must I confront and discover before I can toss them back to God again? Why go through this seemingly pointless exercise?
If the purpose of this life is to know, love, and serve God, and to be happy with Him in Heaven, AND God created me in His image and likeness, then knowing myself also helps me know God. Not that I am God, or a god, but if I can identify Christ who dwells within me, know Him and understand Him, then I will better know God. What is the alternative? I could just go on, ignoring who I am called to be, banging my head against the wall. That’s what I’ve been doing so far, driving me to the point of blogging – it could make for some good conversational pieces. OR I could find Christ in me, see the goodness and purpose of my existence, and finally start living as Christ has called me, SURRENDERED.